Just three days ago I had the displeasure of having a colonoscopy. I am by no means petite and as I am sure most everyone knows the larger the body the more drugs it takes to have an affect. Today, I went back to the location of my procedure and requested copies of what medications were used as well as the dosages. I received copies of that information as well as my blood pressure every 5 minutes during the procedure along with pre and post procedure. Most people's normal blood pressure averages 120/80 ish. I went in with a B.P. of 143/113 (pre procedure), we all know that medications that help keep you calm also keep your blood pressur lower. During the procedure my B.P. was running 174/90, post procedure it was 176/106 and 161/104...I'd say that these numbers verify I was quite awake and very much in pain. The failure was not on the doctor's part, as he was "behind" me, the fault was on the nurse's part by not noticing me cringing and crying, I did not want to move and cause any more pain. My nurse spent most of his time walking back and forth in the room. Just to let you know, initially I was given 3 mg of versed as well as 75 mg of fentanyl, I did say "ouch, ouch, ouch, ouch" just after the insertion of the scope and was then given an additional 2 mg of versed and 25 mg of fentanyl. I remember everything and now I am traumatized at night when I try to sleep, I lay down on my side and all I can remember is the entire procedure and therefore cry myself to sleep. Tonight I am taking an Ambien. On a good note, my physician did call me at home an hour after the procedure and informed me that my nurse did not tell him I was awake and in pain until just a few minutes before the procedure was complete. He stated "I was worried about you". I cannot put all the blame on the physicians in general, it is the responsibility of the person monitoring the client's vital signs to inform the doctor of changes or problems. I know there will be future procedures, but have been promised by this doctor that he would make sure I was completely out during any future procedures, and my comment was "YES, you will". Signed, sleep deprived